Hello

Hello..

My first post.  I had a ton of things to say and now that I'm here in front of the computer - it seems I've drawn a blank!  I decided to start this up more as a journal/reminder for myself to make my life count.  Too many times I've fallen into the trap where I start "existing" rather than "living".  In fact I'm in one of those phases now.  Where I feel like I'm at the bottom of the well.  I can see the light above but have no energy/will to start climbing my way out.  What usually triggers one of these phases are things that happen that are beyond my control/comprehension.  

• Earlier this year I found a lump - yeah one of those.  It totally freaked me out.  Even though the biopsy came back normal - the area does NOT look normal.  I've been back for a few follow up's and all have come back "o.k." although they think I've developed a cyst @ the site of the biopsy.  I'm still freaked.
• With the economy downturn a few of my friends have lost their jobs.  Even though I'm ok so far...It still feels like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

When things like this happen - I usually turn to food.  And I stop exercising..2 things I shouldn't do at the same time.  The above resulted in weight gain [of course].  I'm at the point that I'm tired of feeling tired.  Tired of feeling depressed.  Just tired of being tired.  The Boy travels w/his dad for the next week so I am going to clear out the junk and stop using my elliptical as storage.

What do you do when you feel like life is out of your control?